a new vessel a better story go live

"invite other characters to play parts in your story."

thats one thing i've done less & less of

i remember reading in donald millers
book how that he explained loneliness & fear


 " Loneliness is something that came with the fall.  If loving other people is a bit of heaven than 
certainly isolation is a bit of hell, and to that degree, here on earth, we decide in which state we would like to live."

"fear is a manipulative emotion that can trick us into living a boring life." 

& it made alot of sense


&i realized


i had let both things manifest in my life


but this ("invite other characters to play parts in your story.")


this is one concept
that over time i lost


i stop invited people in to my story


if they happened along into my life


they just happened their way in


then happened their


 way out because


i never let them invest in my story


or i never genuinely invested in theirs 


distance being a factor ( in reality & in my mind)


what they knew about me
 was


what i told them


or what they would read into about me.


i could keep them at a distance


so that i way i wouldnt 


get hurt


which is selfish


thats no way to live


fear isnt a scale
permanently on our eyes


how could anyone learn to trust
me if


i'm not willing to trust them

 enough


to 
consistently be: 


 transparent


honest


an empty vessel


willing to be pour out &filled over & over again
that my soul purpose is to pour out
&


seek those opportunites to


invest in some one elses life.


I heard a great pastor
say
 that until the pain of staying the same overcomes the pain of change
you will never change.


change is necessary
its healthy


& now that this vessel has
found its use 


its scars been 
healed


a new vessel


ready &
  willing


to start a new chapter
&


live a better story

dont let whats in your past
fear
hurts
regrets
doubts
dictate where you'll go 


  go live
your life is worth it

more than ourselves : we are

why
are we so open to tell our feelings
but not
about what the real problem is


is it that on the surface we just want attention


or deep down to we really want to be understood
or is that the last thing we want


some one to know too much about who we
really are 
when we dont even know


all we know is
what we like & what we tell everyone that we dont


feeding on the social buzz


leaning on every fake smile


fueling the fire of a public life
dousing the flames of individuality


hoping that some how it'll all be real
when we're just
feeding the facade of


fake friends
taking love out of context 
out of
heart


living for the words that just fall out of our mouths
& are sent out before we even thought about
anyone anyone else
but our selves


who are we


that we want things here & now that
we're willing to sacrifice truth & honesty
& true originality
to meet a demand for what we want


who are we
who are we becoming ?


look around
this is our generation


we can always change it


we can become trustworthy individuals 


& those people who just need 
to reveal the pains of their 
inner self 
waiting to come into the light 


can


& we can all start 
to live 


honestly 
&
truthfully 
to the best of our abilities 


for something more than ourselves