we learn & we grow

"little kids are so impressionable"


i had a video on my cell phone of my friend


sneaking up and startling his  much younger sister


& i showed it to the 2 year old little girl my mom i look after
& we all laughed for a moment as she
ran in to & out of the kitchen screaming & laughing


mimicking what she saw in the video


she was doing it her way


but she wasnt startling us


she was making us laugh & herself  laugh


this is what in the 1st place caught her attention


the video made her laugh & us laugh


so she liked that we laughed so
 she recreated it.


its alot like how


we live


we see the ( positive or negative) social effects of wearing a certain style of clothing
& the reviews we get


we see the social effects it has when your around of group of people who
use profanity


we see the emotional effects when we make someone smile
or laugh


or cry


we learn these things in life
how we affect it.


&
at times its easy to think


that if we dont in some way


we arnt benefiting ?


that because we cant have and effect in any way ( positive or negative)


we must not be doing the right things


but what if we changed how we viewed our selves


what if we changed how we viewed


our lives ?


what if we werent so busy worrying about


what to wear next week that


we thought about how someone else would dress


with a low flow of income & donated what we have


that we dont seem to need to someone who would.


what if we didnt care about the latest craze


in our group of friends that we took the time
to discover what we truly


liked
 instead of letting everyone else choose for us


what if we spent one day for
solely for


the benefit of others


to make someone else smile


& at the end of the day


found what truly

is important to us

more than ourselves : we are

why
are we so open to tell our feelings
but not
about what the real problem is


is it that on the surface we just want attention


or deep down to we really want to be understood
or is that the last thing we want


some one to know too much about who we
really are 
when we dont even know


all we know is
what we like & what we tell everyone that we dont


feeding on the social buzz


leaning on every fake smile


fueling the fire of a public life
dousing the flames of individuality


hoping that some how it'll all be real
when we're just
feeding the facade of


fake friends
taking love out of context 
out of
heart


living for the words that just fall out of our mouths
& are sent out before we even thought about
anyone anyone else
but our selves


who are we


that we want things here & now that
we're willing to sacrifice truth & honesty
& true originality
to meet a demand for what we want


who are we
who are we becoming ?


look around
this is our generation


we can always change it


we can become trustworthy individuals 


& those people who just need 
to reveal the pains of their 
inner self 
waiting to come into the light 


can


& we can all start 
to live 


honestly 
&
truthfully 
to the best of our abilities 


for something more than ourselves 

endless wonder

isn't it nice to look up at the stars on a clear night

& feel so small 

& at any moment they could fall out of the sky..

 but they don't

 and you get to enjoy them.

& if you're a believer to know that great infinite god who created all of this earth

knows exactly where you are.

and that your admiring his creation  while he's taking delight in his

that all around us is a reminder.

not that that tree over there is god.

but that he

made this dwelling place for us

he poured out his love to create us & even more

 to give us a place of endless wonder.

if you think that it is or not.

i find a lot of things beautiful. 

my definition of beautiful might be different than yours

but when i look up

& i see a 100 stars shimmering held in place by a god

who knows true beauty

i cant help but feel a peace in my soul 

and to me thats beautiful