a new vessel a better story go live

"invite other characters to play parts in your story."

thats one thing i've done less & less of

i remember reading in donald millers
book how that he explained loneliness & fear


 " Loneliness is something that came with the fall.  If loving other people is a bit of heaven than 
certainly isolation is a bit of hell, and to that degree, here on earth, we decide in which state we would like to live."

"fear is a manipulative emotion that can trick us into living a boring life." 

& it made alot of sense


&i realized


i had let both things manifest in my life


but this ("invite other characters to play parts in your story.")


this is one concept
that over time i lost


i stop invited people in to my story


if they happened along into my life


they just happened their way in


then happened their


 way out because


i never let them invest in my story


or i never genuinely invested in theirs 


distance being a factor ( in reality & in my mind)


what they knew about me
 was


what i told them


or what they would read into about me.


i could keep them at a distance


so that i way i wouldnt 


get hurt


which is selfish


thats no way to live


fear isnt a scale
permanently on our eyes


how could anyone learn to trust
me if


i'm not willing to trust them

 enough


to 
consistently be: 


 transparent


honest


an empty vessel


willing to be pour out &filled over & over again
that my soul purpose is to pour out
&


seek those opportunites to


invest in some one elses life.


I heard a great pastor
say
 that until the pain of staying the same overcomes the pain of change
you will never change.


change is necessary
its healthy


& now that this vessel has
found its use 


its scars been 
healed


a new vessel


ready &
  willing


to start a new chapter
&


live a better story

dont let whats in your past
fear
hurts
regrets
doubts
dictate where you'll go 


  go live
your life is worth it