when the sun comes out

not every day of our lives 
is the worst 

 it could have been..

or the best

some days are just normal 

with the absence of anything 

out of the ordinary 

maybe for some people that 

could be their darkness.

no change good or bad.

just stuck.

chained to normalcy 

caught in complacency 

forgetting what they set out to 

accomplish only working towards 

the minimal. 

There's no explanation 

to why this happens to some people & not 

others.

i think what has caused 

it 

for me

was a lack of optimism 

a lack of purpose

What would be the point in working 

towards a goal that doesn't even matter 

to myself in the first place?

* 1st of all it matters what you want out of this life

It's important to stay true to who you are & if you're 

someone who always cares about what 

everyone else has to say.

that will factor in to what you do.

its the choices that make us who we are

if we never take a risk in reaching for a goal

we'll never live a fulfilled life 

who wants to sit back at the end of their life 

and say " well i played it safe, now its time to die..if only i could have done something to tell my grandchildren" ?

i don't think anyone does.

complacency is a dangerous thing 

it can make us loose sight of our dreams

& lead us to live a life of 

un-fulfillment.

"You must be the change you want to see in the world." - Mahatma Gandhi

I like what Gandhi says about this.

I want to be the person that i would like to look up to

be your own hero.

i'm not saying go out & do something you would regret.

what i mean is stay true to who you are & remember that 

even though life may not be so 

exciting right now 

but the 

future holds more than what we can imagine 

if we go into it with a heart full of 

hope

when everything falls

 life comes 

at the the most opportune & the most inconvenient times 

when it feels like you just want to get out 

a blizzard shuts you in 

& sometimes when you just want it to stop

in the middle of the night 

its starts falling all over again

& we wake up to it

it can cover up the most vulnerable parts that we want 

to hide

it can distract us from all the pain we're going through

or it make us realize that life happens if we want it to or not 

we can let it bury us for a while or we can get lost in it

it can harden our hearts or it can put in dormant what is
too overwhelming 

at the moment 

what ever it is that makes us stop 

slows us down

it doesn't stop life

maybe its just a distraction 

i dont think anyone is ready when a loss comes

in a desert its expected to rain maybe 5 days out of the year

what isnt expected is for there to be a downpour for 5 days straight 

the ground isnt prepared to soak up that much

its overwhelming.

sometimes we expect that when we get older we'll be able to

accept a death or a tragedy more easily 

i dont think thats what comes with age 

i dont think anyone is fully prepared for 

everything to fall

but there is a god we can run to
when life does
become more than we can bear
he's there with his arms
wide open
& he's able to give us peace when

everything falls