according to albert

ACCORDING  to enstein its crazy do the same thing over & over again & expect different results.

in this circumstance im crazy
i'll admit.
when god created man he gave us the ablilty to choose
adam & eve show us that
their life didn't end
right after a bad choice
but still.. things were never the same

When this happens we're given a choice
to learn & move on
or to dwell & obsess & worry

its impossible to imagine a senario &
it happen exactly like that.
even if you are a master in reasoning & sociology

you cannot control people
you can only control you
& you can control how to react to the bad choice
you make or other people make

its crazy to think that
becoming bitter & cynical or worried & scared
over & over again will make any problems
go away.

there has to be a change
to alter the outcome

according to albert

something beautiful

if something moves us in a way that
shakes part of our being
makes us realize something drastic

makes us look at our own lives

plays a melody on our heart strings

makes us re-evaluate our priorities

makes things click

or just makes us feel
anything

we call it beautiful.

but what do we call it when
something surpasses all expectations for 'beautiful'
do we call it
awe inspiring?
 magnificent?
breath-taking ?


does it make us speechless or
does it make us speak?

does it take our breath away or
make us breath deeper?

does it put us in a state of awe or
does it inspire?

i think the real question is
if we experience something
beautiful does it shape how we live our lives
does it change how we look at life
 or treasure it?

or is it just a moment of lost breath..

when the sun comes out

not every day of our lives 
is the worst 

 it could have been..

or the best

some days are just normal 

with the absence of anything 

out of the ordinary 

maybe for some people that 

could be their darkness.

no change good or bad.

just stuck.

chained to normalcy 

caught in complacency 

forgetting what they set out to 

accomplish only working towards 

the minimal. 

There's no explanation 

to why this happens to some people & not 

others.

i think what has caused 

it 

for me

was a lack of optimism 

a lack of purpose

What would be the point in working 

towards a goal that doesn't even matter 

to myself in the first place?

* 1st of all it matters what you want out of this life

It's important to stay true to who you are & if you're 

someone who always cares about what 

everyone else has to say.

that will factor in to what you do.

its the choices that make us who we are

if we never take a risk in reaching for a goal

we'll never live a fulfilled life 

who wants to sit back at the end of their life 

and say " well i played it safe, now its time to die..if only i could have done something to tell my grandchildren" ?

i don't think anyone does.

complacency is a dangerous thing 

it can make us loose sight of our dreams

& lead us to live a life of 

un-fulfillment.

"You must be the change you want to see in the world." - Mahatma Gandhi

I like what Gandhi says about this.

I want to be the person that i would like to look up to

be your own hero.

i'm not saying go out & do something you would regret.

what i mean is stay true to who you are & remember that 

even though life may not be so 

exciting right now 

but the 

future holds more than what we can imagine 

if we go into it with a heart full of 

hope

when everything falls

 life comes 

at the the most opportune & the most inconvenient times 

when it feels like you just want to get out 

a blizzard shuts you in 

& sometimes when you just want it to stop

in the middle of the night 

its starts falling all over again

& we wake up to it

it can cover up the most vulnerable parts that we want 

to hide

it can distract us from all the pain we're going through

or it make us realize that life happens if we want it to or not 

we can let it bury us for a while or we can get lost in it

it can harden our hearts or it can put in dormant what is
too overwhelming 

at the moment 

what ever it is that makes us stop 

slows us down

it doesn't stop life

maybe its just a distraction 

i dont think anyone is ready when a loss comes

in a desert its expected to rain maybe 5 days out of the year

what isnt expected is for there to be a downpour for 5 days straight 

the ground isnt prepared to soak up that much

its overwhelming.

sometimes we expect that when we get older we'll be able to

accept a death or a tragedy more easily 

i dont think thats what comes with age 

i dont think anyone is fully prepared for 

everything to fall

but there is a god we can run to
when life does
become more than we can bear
he's there with his arms
wide open
& he's able to give us peace when

everything falls

snow

i love how snow just makes

everything  just slow down

i know that its annoying when you can drive & go 

hang with people

but im not gonna lie it is beautiful

i woke up to it this morning/afternoon & it was

there

i love contrast.

& snow is the ultimate factor in it 

it does get annoying after a while when

we're trying to

do normal things 

& the snow makes it difficult 

maybe its just a reminder to stop & enjoy 

& marvel 

& give global warming a nice taunting 

:)

sky

have you ever looked at the sky.

having a rough day & just stepped out side &

gazed at it ?

why do we do this 

let our minds run away 

to where our bodies cant.

its calming.

i have a little relaxing ritual of my own

in my house there is a window that i

think has the best view of the sky 

its nothing special & there are trees in the way

but i like to sit up against the wall & just stare.

i its like for a moment im lost.

i dont reflect on my day 

because

i can do that when im lying awake at night trying shut off my brain

lol

but i just get lost.

Maybe thats why god gave us 

such a beautiful 

place to live 

despite all the ugly around us.

its like he's whispering 

" i made this for you"

like he knew things

 were gonna get rough

so he gave us some

beauty 

that doesn't have 

emotion 

but we feel it

joy

a little theology if you will:)

joy is not being oblivious to pain or suffering 

joy is finding peace regardless 

it brings perseverance 

joy isn't ignorance of reality 

but embracing it 

is strength 

What could be worse

What could be worse selfpity 
or denial? 


Ones a ticking bomb &


 the other is just a distraction from the truth.

questions

Name one thing you love about winter?

the sky when its not all cloudy

at night its intoxicating if you can brace the cold to enjoy it

long enough. its what makes it that much better

Do you have a hard time letting go?

i have a hard time not bringing it back up initially its easy at first

but then i over think it

Reason behind the last time you cried really hard?

a beautiful realization

Do you believe that there's good in everybody?

always some people have just covered it up or denied it

over time

Do you prefer to write in pen or pencil?

pen

but i when i mess up i get a little ocd when i write letters lol

which  i enjoy alot

.....

comment your answers? i'd love to hear them  :)

well said Mr. King

i over heard some talk radio 

in the kitchen 

today

being martin luther king day

 all they could rant 

about 

was 

that if MLK was around he would'nt be a  supporter  of 

the obama admistration 

& that he was a conservative.

making all of the assumptions.

i know it stired up some conversation

that someone will quote when they encounter 

their next liberal.

but honestly what's the point in that?

based on his beliefs 

yes 

he would probably be a conservative.

but i'm sure he wouldnt have cared 

so why should we 

add to

all of the mess 

why should 
the beliefs of a good man be thrown aside 
just to further a division.

“Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and consciencious stupidity.”

well said Mr. King

a new vessel a better story go live

"invite other characters to play parts in your story."

thats one thing i've done less & less of

i remember reading in donald millers
book how that he explained loneliness & fear


 " Loneliness is something that came with the fall.  If loving other people is a bit of heaven than 
certainly isolation is a bit of hell, and to that degree, here on earth, we decide in which state we would like to live."

"fear is a manipulative emotion that can trick us into living a boring life." 

& it made alot of sense


&i realized


i had let both things manifest in my life


but this ("invite other characters to play parts in your story.")


this is one concept
that over time i lost


i stop invited people in to my story


if they happened along into my life


they just happened their way in


then happened their


 way out because


i never let them invest in my story


or i never genuinely invested in theirs 


distance being a factor ( in reality & in my mind)


what they knew about me
 was


what i told them


or what they would read into about me.


i could keep them at a distance


so that i way i wouldnt 


get hurt


which is selfish


thats no way to live


fear isnt a scale
permanently on our eyes


how could anyone learn to trust
me if


i'm not willing to trust them

 enough


to 
consistently be: 


 transparent


honest


an empty vessel


willing to be pour out &filled over & over again
that my soul purpose is to pour out
&


seek those opportunites to


invest in some one elses life.


I heard a great pastor
say
 that until the pain of staying the same overcomes the pain of change
you will never change.


change is necessary
its healthy


& now that this vessel has
found its use 


its scars been 
healed


a new vessel


ready &
  willing


to start a new chapter
&


live a better story

dont let whats in your past
fear
hurts
regrets
doubts
dictate where you'll go 


  go live
your life is worth it