no room

this past year ive noticed
its been difficult in certain situations to
decifer emotions from thoughts
and to understand when one should not control the other.
and even more when one comes from unresolved thoughts.
its confusing. i know lol
sometimes the simplest word from someone
can open up your eyes. & when taken to heart
can just well. help.

This weekend i traveled to south carolina to hear&meet my favorite
writer Don Miller while on tour for his latest book.

Don was talking about happiness/ and low expectations

He talked about denmark being one of the 3rd happiest places in the world.
.. he watched this on 60 mins so its def legit if your wondering lol
what caught my attention the most was when he spun off
talking about people
and i could tell he was becoming more personal
when he said sometimes we get so irritated with people because they dont meet our expectiations
something like that. but this is probably just my interpretation of it.
he continued
and if we just realized that people aren't perfect
& stopped playing the blame game
it would make it things alot more simplier and we would be more content.

this rocked me. its so simple and ive probably heard it before.
but im sure that i was ment to hear it then. at this point in my story
hearing those words and getting a hold of them.
was the start to my own healing process.

my mind atomatically went to a situation i had some unresolved bitterness to
which..
(i wont really go into it but i thought i had forgiven someone and i had but i went back and in my heart blamed them for something they had no control over. me. dealing with disappointments in life is taking responsiblity for you. ive said this before you can always choose the situations that happen to you but you can choose how to respond in the middle of them. in the past i chose self pity and pointed the finger at the wrong person. and this helped me see what i needed to a long time ago. and honestly i really wouldnt have been surprised if i had heard something like what don spoke about before. i think if i did & i didnt apply to my life. it was because i wasnt in the place to fix it. not that i couldnt have. but i know i was ment to hear those words. )

i really have no reason to.

this is what im saying
putting someone on a pedestal
is setting you up to be disappointed .
people are human & so are you.
you cant blame someone else for your feelings.
self pity will get you no where.
except probably into a state of depression
like don said 'you just need to get that crap out of your life theres no room for it'
that is unless you dont want to lead a fufilling happier life

other wise you would read everything i said here in the opposite

as a side note
this may seem somewhat harsh or insenstive
to those who say that.
im not talking to you.
im talking to the one who read this and their mind went to a past
hurt, current situation.

im not saying that this is easy
but clearing the other distractions in life
can help the healing start so
you can live