snow

i love how snow just makes

everything  just slow down

i know that its annoying when you can drive & go 

hang with people

but im not gonna lie it is beautiful

i woke up to it this morning/afternoon & it was

there

i love contrast.

& snow is the ultimate factor in it 

it does get annoying after a while when

we're trying to

do normal things 

& the snow makes it difficult 

maybe its just a reminder to stop & enjoy 

& marvel 

& give global warming a nice taunting 

:)

sky

have you ever looked at the sky.

having a rough day & just stepped out side &

gazed at it ?

why do we do this 

let our minds run away 

to where our bodies cant.

its calming.

i have a little relaxing ritual of my own

in my house there is a window that i

think has the best view of the sky 

its nothing special & there are trees in the way

but i like to sit up against the wall & just stare.

i its like for a moment im lost.

i dont reflect on my day 

because

i can do that when im lying awake at night trying shut off my brain

lol

but i just get lost.

Maybe thats why god gave us 

such a beautiful 

place to live 

despite all the ugly around us.

its like he's whispering 

" i made this for you"

like he knew things

 were gonna get rough

so he gave us some

beauty 

that doesn't have 

emotion 

but we feel it

joy

a little theology if you will:)

joy is not being oblivious to pain or suffering 

joy is finding peace regardless 

it brings perseverance 

joy isn't ignorance of reality 

but embracing it 

is strength 

What could be worse

What could be worse selfpity 
or denial? 


Ones a ticking bomb &


 the other is just a distraction from the truth.

questions

Name one thing you love about winter?

the sky when its not all cloudy

at night its intoxicating if you can brace the cold to enjoy it

long enough. its what makes it that much better

Do you have a hard time letting go?

i have a hard time not bringing it back up initially its easy at first

but then i over think it

Reason behind the last time you cried really hard?

a beautiful realization

Do you believe that there's good in everybody?

always some people have just covered it up or denied it

over time

Do you prefer to write in pen or pencil?

pen

but i when i mess up i get a little ocd when i write letters lol

which  i enjoy alot

.....

comment your answers? i'd love to hear them  :)

well said Mr. King

i over heard some talk radio 

in the kitchen 

today

being martin luther king day

 all they could rant 

about 

was 

that if MLK was around he would'nt be a  supporter  of 

the obama admistration 

& that he was a conservative.

making all of the assumptions.

i know it stired up some conversation

that someone will quote when they encounter 

their next liberal.

but honestly what's the point in that?

based on his beliefs 

yes 

he would probably be a conservative.

but i'm sure he wouldnt have cared 

so why should we 

add to

all of the mess 

why should 
the beliefs of a good man be thrown aside 
just to further a division.

“Nothing in the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and consciencious stupidity.”

well said Mr. King

a new vessel a better story go live

"invite other characters to play parts in your story."

thats one thing i've done less & less of

i remember reading in donald millers
book how that he explained loneliness & fear


 " Loneliness is something that came with the fall.  If loving other people is a bit of heaven than 
certainly isolation is a bit of hell, and to that degree, here on earth, we decide in which state we would like to live."

"fear is a manipulative emotion that can trick us into living a boring life." 

& it made alot of sense


&i realized


i had let both things manifest in my life


but this ("invite other characters to play parts in your story.")


this is one concept
that over time i lost


i stop invited people in to my story


if they happened along into my life


they just happened their way in


then happened their


 way out because


i never let them invest in my story


or i never genuinely invested in theirs 


distance being a factor ( in reality & in my mind)


what they knew about me
 was


what i told them


or what they would read into about me.


i could keep them at a distance


so that i way i wouldnt 


get hurt


which is selfish


thats no way to live


fear isnt a scale
permanently on our eyes


how could anyone learn to trust
me if


i'm not willing to trust them

 enough


to 
consistently be: 


 transparent


honest


an empty vessel


willing to be pour out &filled over & over again
that my soul purpose is to pour out
&


seek those opportunites to


invest in some one elses life.


I heard a great pastor
say
 that until the pain of staying the same overcomes the pain of change
you will never change.


change is necessary
its healthy


& now that this vessel has
found its use 


its scars been 
healed


a new vessel


ready &
  willing


to start a new chapter
&


live a better story

dont let whats in your past
fear
hurts
regrets
doubts
dictate where you'll go 


  go live
your life is worth it